Monthly Archives: January 2014

Salivate

Let me breathe
My thoughts
Into your mouth
Swallow my words
Down
I’m falling in love
With you so quick
I’ve very nearly
Drowned
On the drool
That’s forming
Inside my mouth
You make me
Salivate
With the yearning
And desire
All of which you
Create
But I need to wake up
Need to get
Real
Perhaps this isn’t
The way you
Feel
Anymore
Maybe
Just maybe
I chose
the wrong
Door
Picked the wrong
Path
The one leading to you
Was a mistake
I misread the
Map
So splash me with water
Wake me up
From this
Dream
Your sudden silence
Has turned in to
A nightmare
And I want to
Scream
But I got to chill
Have to play it
Cool
Pretend my mouth
Isn’t full of
Drool
Let you take the
Lead
I will not
Plead
I will not
Beg
So go
Ahead
Take me for granted
Pretend I’m not
There
Because god forbid
I show my true feelings
Show I
Care
That’ll make you run
Cause you to
Hide
Do you do this
Out of
Pride?
You want to maintain
Your independence
Be a loner
Still
I’m not here to steal that from you
So I will leave you alone
Until
You Man up
Find your courage
Inside
Until then my love
I’m getting off this
Ride

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Bad Day

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He says I’m an emotional mess.
But Honey you ain’t seen
Nothing yet.
He said,
I wish your mom was alive,
So I could see how far the apple
Fell from the tree.
Well screw you.
Now I’m brushing aside my class. Screw you.
I want to wipe that smug look
Off your face.
Screw you.
He says I’m an emotional mess.
But Honey I’m just having a bad day.
I’d be doing a little better,
If you were around less.
Or fucking went away.


Drowned

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And suddenly,
All the smiles
You bring to my face
Turn to frowns.
And I realize now
That I have
Drowned,
In a love
That was fraudulent,
One sided,
Not there.
Due to the fact
That you
Were too scared.
But baby,
I’m afraid too.
But I took the leap,
In the deep end
While you stayed asleep.
Safely on the shore,
Yelling words of encouragement.
But I want more.
I want truth.
I want your heart.
As soon as you noticed
Feelings,
You started to depart.
You locked it away.
I guess I’m just not worth
The attempt
To stay.
And maybe you’ll regret,
After the fall.
Wake up and see,
That love is worth
It all.


Full of Lies

I made a mistake.
I trusted you.
Let you in.
Too soon.
Too close.
Skin to skin.
Heart to heart,
Pulse rising,
Only to part.
All those words,
You whispered,
Lies.
They defied my
Common sense.
My feelings grew,
So immense.
I should’ve known better.
Protected my heart.
But I believed your sweet mouth,
From the start.
And that look in your eyes,
When you stared at me.
How could I have been
Fooled
And not see,
The emptiness
You claim to feel.
I saw that magic
In your eyes.
I know it was real.
So tell me all day,
As you walk away.
That it was all
Just a dream,
And you don’t know
If you can ever grow
To love Me.
And I will reply,
With truth on my lips,
And love in my eyes.
That you my dear,
Are full of
Lies.

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Shoved

I can’t catch my breath,
My heart is skipping beats.
And I am scared to death,
That you will defeat,
Me,
My walls,
If I stumble,
I will fall,
So hard,
In love.
Yet here I am,
Shoved.
And it could hurt,
Could kill,
And yet I tumble,
Still,
Into,
Your arms.
I’m safe,
So warm,
I’ve silenced the alarms.
I’m scared,
But ready.
Just hold me,
My love,
Until I’m steady.